Woot N Woot

So lots has happened since my last entry... I'm no longer Chairperson of Footscray Nicholson Campus Branch for Victoria University Student union and I'm now on Anti-depressants and i have regular meetings with my counselor Liz. My Girlfriend and I are fine and everything love life wise is going fine. My older brother and younger sister both had their child. My brother had a baby girl and her name is Jorja Dawn and my sister had a baby boy and his name is Domanik. The parentals are fine and yeah. in my last entry i said that my friend with benefits was no longer in existence, turns out i'm better then i thought and we see each other on the side... His still with his woman! Also long the line i picked up another 2 friends with benefits and yeah so my sex life is just thrieving!!!

School is school and i have to make an appointment to arrange my personal learning program for next year with my old course coordinator. I'm thinking i might do Community Development instead of Community welfare... not sure yet. I have a few other things that i want to do as part of my training. I want to get my security license and my bar and gaming license... just for back up... in case i want to do something else for a little while. Also it would be good to get a job while i get my degree... instead of living like a poor fuck! On top of that i can use it when i travel... because i intend on traveling.... My girlfriend and i might be going to New Zealand at the start of next year and then it might be off to chicago mid year. So my travels will start. I have to get my passport *eek*!!!

On top of all that i gt in contact with my biological father and his getting married. Also him and his new wife are going to be having a child next year sometime so i will have like 9 siblings!!! I already have 4 brothers and 4 sisters... 3 fathers and 2 mothers now... Can my family get any bigger? DAM!!!

Lately i have been thinking about having a child... i don't know why but i'm starting to get the urge to start a family... which is pretty scary for me considering i have not had a real interest in having a family this early in my life! i just keep telling myself that i'm way to young and have so much that i want to do that having kids right now is not a good idea. besides i want to marry this guy and i know it's unrealistic but his like the love of my life and i have obsessed over him for far to long and i need to pull my finger out and make things happen so i can be happy. i'm such a dreamer though... i mean... will i ever get around to doing the things i say i want to do or need to do? I think i will... it just takes time and money and i have plenty of time and no money so we hae to get a balance and get things rolling. The one thing i'm concerned about is that no matter who my partner is... will they want to live the life style of a gypsy... because thats the kind of life style i'm going to lead! Traveling and working and making a living somewhere for a short time then picking all my shit up and leaving for the next horizon that looks like a good on to pull up a piece of sunshine on and stay for a bit then do it all again....

I think the emptiness that i feel now won't go for awhile... not tll i find what it is that i am searching for and yeah. Life is like a box of chocolates.... you never know what u'll get out of it!!! Thanks Forest!!! :p